A normal blog entry

I looked back on some of my posts and realized what a moody and sad girl this blog seems to portray! I decided that no, this is not what i am, or want to be! I do not really expect much people to read my blog cause i never really publicized it. Though, there might be people i never expect to stumble upon this.

Ah...but really, this blog was set out to be a photo blog, a diary of what i've done or been, lists of things i'd like to do, places i'd like to go...so its supposed to be a somewhat happy and light to read. Like the normal things people blog about their everyday stuff.

Now is one of the busy times of my life. Just finished my pharmacotherapy paper. With the effort, I'm pretty satisfied with the outcomes. Can't say I've done well but I guess i was able to reason things well and made my best choices. Don't expect much though from the results of tests i never really study. Never been so unprepared for exams since I usually would have at least gone though everything by now. But now, I haven even touched materials for the last paper besides having missed most of the lectures. Haha... It feels good sometimes to let go a bit and wonder what grades would turn out.

I feel heavy to leave this place that have been my home for the past four years. Hopefully I'd be able to extend my stay another week or two cause the last time i asked the office, they said it's very full and would only be able to give me an answer tomorrow. But i don't care! I'll find my ways somehow! Also pray pray will be able to find a reasonably good new place to stay. The rental fees are crazy nowadays!

Alsooo....before i have fully recovered from my cold, I fell sick again yesterday. Don't know whether it's the 7 rounds of 'kuan ying' tea I had on an empty stomach, or the chocolate biscuits I had after that without water. I've been coughing out blood stained phlegm. Probably from my oesophageal mucosa. Nothing serious, i hope! Ah.. need to learn how to take care of myself! Time to fill my tummy and study liaoz!

Left On The Shelf

I live in a place where i see people getting together....falling in love... falling out of love.....falling in love again or not. It's such a pity for couples to break up because getting together is not easy in the first place. Some say, but i think otherwise. As much as we should try our best to work things out, what lies ahead is always more important than the past. What will keep you together rather than what had brought you together. There really can be a million reasons to get together and a million reasons to break up for every couple out there. When something happens, it can't be a for few sole reasons. But there is always a few standard and simple ways of explaining things.

People simply have different expectations and different beliefs. They are the real roots of 'love', like how the big strong trees hide their deep roots underground. They govern our decisions and what we see is only superficial.

What do you expect in a relationship? Security, compatibility, intimacy or what not. Of course there are no right or wrong answers. Do you believe that in the end love conquers all? Probably yes if both are willing and have deep faith in love and their relationship. But if anyone doesn''t think so, probably not. Sounds simple. All you need is belief and faith in each other. But changing beliefs is really harder than almost anything else. That's probably why people choose their partners based on expectations and beliefs...rather than the other way round.

Then again, that creates a lot of frustrations and mismatching. It's like listing down a set of criteria and hoping to find a product in the market that meets the requirements. There is a plethora of products out there but locating the ideal one may not be that easy. Soooooo many products out there and you can't find one for yourself? Really...we're just choosy. The one we desire may not available in our country nor exist to date/future . Too expensive. Too cheap. Packaging not nice lar. Too bulky. Too tiny. Too much. Too little. So hot.. sold off liaoz! Out of stock! .... but still a lot of others left of the shelves...Buy? Don't buy? Other people buy liao no more how? Beware!! cos we all have expiry dates! and there is always hard competition with the new products! What happens then? Just try to find the best match lo...Hahaz...you know when you go to a sale and end up buying things you don't need? That's when you get into trouble.

Love could never be quite well explained despite generations of love. Maybe explicit spoils the beauty... or maybe its the mystery that everybody loves. To me, love is like a naughty boy who likes to creep up on people unprepared, unpredictably and indiscriminatingly. He is really something beyond control and should never be judged as much as people often like to. A relationship is different because it is a decision to commit and let love grow.

down the long windy road...

I was walking alone down the long windy road again...
listening to my mp3...carrying a bag of groceries...
avoiding plastic bags is easier said than done...
with my new sling bag, i thought i wouldn't need em...
but it happens all the time. when i realize it, the cashier have already packed all my stuff into plastic bags.
also, the cold stuff condenses a lot of water after a while, not so nice.

hmm... if i'd wanna be serious about this.
I'd need to carry a foldable waterproof shopping bag whenever i go out shopping.
haha... reminds me of harrods shopping bag.
don't think its cheap... nor very foldable and abusable...

also, there is a very debatable q's here.
do you think one person can make a difference to the earth?
I'm talking about the little things you do e.g. sorting our your rubbish, avoiding plastic bags, using energy saving bulbs etc. etc.

on another note as i continue walking ....
two couples were walking in front holding hands
i used to loathe at the sight of this...
especially when i see those xiao mei mei and xiao di di together

i think its the way our hometown/family/school have brought us up
like love is some kind of evil force that will wreck you apart
it will make you blind and fail your studies
somehow this illogical doctrine is rooted deep inside
although i never quite agree with it... especially how it'll affect studies n all that
they are just excuses
there can always be a million reasons for almost anything

i have different feelings and thoughts with the same sights now
also they are usually very random and unorganized
sometimes they don't make sense too
like this post...
pretty spontaneous and incoherent...